Coupled with stress from college and the pending monthly 'aunty visits', my mood today has gone haywired, changing it from one end to the other without so much of a blink of an eye. Instead of going from sad to happy or vice versa, my mood decided to go from moody and angry to normal and everything else. It doesn't help a bit that I easily get irritated the whole day and snapped at my friends without any hesitation. It also doesn't help that Jo was at the same state of mood that I am, so instead of comforting each other to calm down, we tend to aggravate each other more and lose our temper even faster. Fortunately, we didn't lose it on each other because if we do, there's a high chance of WW3 exploding into the scene.
My mood didn't get much better throughout the day because of a friend's continuous complains about how super stress and super busy she is because she overload one extra unit this semester and the impending media campaign project that she's doing alone. Erm...excuse me but every Year 2 student is also super stress and super busy with assignments and projects and exams. Just because she overload a unit this semester, she thinks she has more right to complain and doesn't accept other people's complain about being stress and busy. Whenever I said that I get really stressed out thinking about the media campaign project, she will quickly 'shoot' down my statement saying that she's worse off than I am because she's doing it alone and I have a partner to help me out with the report. And she will not forget to remind me that she's overloading this semester. It's ok if she make such statements once in a while but practically several times everyday? Isn't that a bit too much? I'm stressed out here and worried about my work and sometimes, all I need is for someone to listen to me without replying that they are worst off than I am. Is it too much to ask for somebody from my class to listen to me with empathy once in a while without the need to compare herself with me?
So, she's doing an extra unit this semester and doing the media campaign project all by herself. But there are also other Year 2 students who are in the same situation as she is and you don't see them complaining the head of somebody else. She actually had a choice to do the campaign project with another person but in the end, she choose to do it herself because in her own words, "my partner is a slacker". So, she has chosen to do the project herself, so deal with it and stop complaining so much! Stop complaining that she's worst off because she had to do it herself because she chose to do it herself in the first place. Don't go around justifying to others about why she's doing alone and complaining about all the things that she had to do. Start early then! Start researching and sitting down and getting things done! I know it's difficult because of the lack of concentration because I'm going through the same thing, but at least I try my best to accomplish some things before it's too late. I set targets and tried to achieve them albeit being unsuccessful at times because of certain constraints. But at least I tried. I don't sit around saying that I have so much to do and then don't do anything about it.
I know she's unhappy with me today because I answered back, rather, I rebutted what she said about deadlines and all. I know she felt that I made her look bad in front of everybody because she wanted everybody to know how busy she is (I think) and I know that she gave me dirty or angry look after that, even though she thought I didn't see it but I actually did. It also doesn't help a lot that she expects everybody to adapt to her time and schedule and she doesn't try to do the same for others. It's rather selfish me thinks but what can I do? If I confront her, we'll definitely not be talking anymore and frankly, minus all these reserves I have of her, she's still a good friend. I think it's just the mood and stress that's eating up everybody, including me and her, thus all the minor bickering and bitching and what not. Yup, it's definitely the stress and mood that's turning me into such a bitch tonight. Hopefully, things will be better tomorrow though I doubt it because of the campaign presentation!!!
